letters from the crushed

you,

i find it crazy that you’re the one boy i’ve ever truly fell head over heels for, and we haven’t even spoken in person to each other. i want to meet you, i want to be able to stand in front of you and talk to you, i want to be able to walk next to you and to hear what your laugh sounds like, but i know that will never happen because i’m far too convinced that i’m not nearly the person you’re expecting. i’ll just be a disappointment, and i’d rather go nowhere than go there with you.

— me